|Friday, September 16th, 2005|
I just woke up. I'm starting to make it habit to sleep every friday at 6 for at least 2 hours. Classes are good... I got a 98% on my first behavioral analysis test!!! Yay for me. I've been studying sooooo much for that class. I don't think I've ever studied so much for ANY class before.
Oh yeah... Kembra! I hope you are feeling well-- there's a fick show on campus tomorrow afternoon (before the game) if you feel up to going. If not, pick any time that you feel alright so that I can give you the $$ for my Against Me! T-shirt.
Myspace link to come soon... I'm lazy!! Current Mood: awake
|Tuesday, August 2nd, 2005|
I saw A Dirty Shame last night... LAUGHED my ass off!! I also watched Boogie Nights right afterward. I woke up this morning humping a pillow. Yeah, remind me not to watch two sexually explicit movies before bedtime.
I need some sexin
I have internet in my room! I got a wireless thingie so I can check my e-mail while I'm in bed. As if I wasn't already lazy enough.
I have a job interview tomorrow at 10 am and I can't sleep. This would be my fourth job interview in 3 weeks. It's a temporary job but I could still use the money. I think I overdrew my account yesterday. sigh Current Mood: is "poor" a mood?
|Wednesday, July 13th, 2005|
|Sunday, July 10th, 2005|
|Poor Poor Pensacola
My family is cursed. I swear it! Every time any person in my immediate family moves there is a natural disaster. For example:
1990: Merenda family moves from Sicily, Italy, to Maryland. Mount Etna has 1st major eruption in 50 years, which takes out an entire city.
1993: Merenda family moves from Maryland. Maryland sees first blizzard in decades...
2001: Merenda family moves from Sicily, Italy, again. Mount Etna (after an 11 year sleep) awakens to devastate yet another city.
2004: Last Merenda leaves Pensacola, Florida. 1 day later Hurricane Ivan strikes. The house that said last Merenda lived in (and just sold) is reduced to rubble.
All I'm saying is that anyone who lives in Gainesville better make peace with their god after I move. bwu ha ha ha ha!!! Current Mood: mischievous
|Tuesday, June 28th, 2005|
Your Japanese Name Is...
|You better BELIZE it!!!
Okay... so this is what I learned about Belize during the three days I was there:
1) Golf carts ROCK
2) Every female is named Brianna
3) Sting rays feel squishy
4) whenever "believe" is used in a phrase, it is replaced with "Belize" on all t-shirts, shot-glasses, etc. Yes, I do have a wrap that says "You better Belize it!!!"
5) Everything is too freakin expensive so everyone got gifts of jam... marmalade... jelly. what have you.
6) humidity + ocean + mosquitoes= sad face :(
Anyway... I'm sick.
cheers to malaria!! Current Mood: sick
|Monday, June 20th, 2005|
|The job market in Gainesville can BLOW me
I applied for 15 jobs today. 15. I even applied at Wal-Mart.
My brain hurts! I've memorized my resume because i had to write it out so many times today.
Anyway, I'm hopeful. I went to an interview this morning but I found out that I can't start until the fall because I'm not taking any classes for summer b. I would be taking classes but my dad is lame and hasn't paid my tuition for summer a yet. His lameness has also made it impossible to find out my grades. Boo. Boo, I say.
On another note, I had good conversations with buddies last night. Cleared some things up. I also had some more beer. That Heineken at Kembra's house has tainted my diet. I crave beer. I'm a beer monster.
I need help Current Mood: hopeful
|Sunday, June 19th, 2005|
I'm awake now, which I guess is a good thing. My brain hurts from thinking too much last night. I've been thinking too much a lot lately. I just want a fucking job. I mean, really, how many people out there actually WANT to work. They need to work to pay bills and what not. I need to work but I also want to work. I want to have a job and be busy with other people instead of being alone by myself. I think too much when I'm alone and that scares me.
I drank 6 year old liquor last night because that's all I have in my house. I've never taken a shot after feeling shitty. I felt calm. It was nice
I sold $100 worth of jewelry (that I never wore and hated) for $15 dollars. Most of it was religious stuff. The guy who bought it is a jewelry maker. He asked me if I was a heathen when I told him that I don't go to church anymore. I told him I thought the churches in Gainesville were full of bigots. I think that's why he ripped me off. Fuck him
Just a couple hours left till Andrea gets back. I miss her Current Mood: sad
|Saturday, June 18th, 2005|
|How the FUCK does one FAIL a personality test??!?!?!?!
My spirit is broken. I didn't get a job today because i failed the personality test section of it. I was honest on most of it and the other parts i put what they want to hear. Phil even told i could start working tomorrow. I was all excited. FUCK Why is it so hard to get a job that fuck high schoolers can get. I don't want to work telemarketing but it seems like don't have any other choices. Fuck
I've been crying for an hour over this shit. I'm bored and alone and depressed. I wish I had someone to hang out with...
I need a drink... Current Mood: crushed
|Wednesday, June 8th, 2005|
|I'm bored... depressing rant time!
Groan. Groooooooaaaan. I'm bored! This happens every night my friends hangout with my ex and no one else calls. It's wrong.. but I wish my friends weren't friends with him! Why is it that it seems like no one understands me. I just don't want to see him and somehow that makes me a bad person. I just feel like I'm being punished for this. That my friends would rather hang out with him. I feel boring right now.
Uuuuuuggggghhh.... I hate being bored. I just got back from an hour long walk. I'm a muddy wreck right now. I just happened to go down the one dirt road near my house that has NO streetlights. I just now noticed how muddy my legs are.
I went to the gym on monday and tuesday. I did those cardio classes. I woke up this morning and thought I was paralyzed! Ooooh... it burns!!
Ah, I feel better.
|Monday, May 16th, 2005|
|Sunday, May 15th, 2005|
|I've been cheating on my diet in my sleep... it's pathetic
Sooo... I'm bored. I just saw "Kicking and Screaming". Um... I would've preferred to see it on TV. it's "alright-okay."
I'm hoping that if I post enough that all the lame shit from two years ago will not being on my main page. Man, why the hell was I so pathetic. I think I was just undersexed.... or maybe oversexed. It's too late to tell.
SO yeah, since i've started my diet i've been dreaming on cheating on it. it's sad, really, but I feel so bad during my dreams that it motivates me to stick to this diet! I haven't been this committed to anything in my life. I'm gonna keep at it, no matter how much I want sugar. Damn that fucking sugar! I wish it was never harvested, then all my cravings would be gone.
I'm going to go now and eat some sugar-FREE jello...
hmm Current Mood: drained
Arrg... the ghettoness at Pinetree continues.
Day 7 of South Beach. I could eat an entire container of sugar right now. Or, even better, icecream!! I crave for icecream. I could make love to icecream. Hmmm.... I scream for icecream. I'm not missing bread or anything... just sweets. But, alas, South Beach is doing something right because I've lost weight. Yay!
well... I better get started on studying for an exam i have tomorrow. Sensory processes. I need a beer... Current Mood: lethargic
|Saturday, May 14th, 2005|
|I didn't forget, Kembi!!
So it's saturday and my new ghetto neighbors are at it again. Either their pit bulls are fighting or the gents are fighting with their pregnant white girlfriends. I'm glad I'm getting out of this apartment complex in a month!
I started a diet last week. That means no alcohol for two weeks, Kembra. I can't be a lush for two WHOLE weeks. Whatever am I to do?
Eh, not much else to write here.
ps.. we need to hang out... call me!
|Tuesday, August 10th, 2004|
|My new phone is sexy...
So right... I spent 2 hours today at that damn AT&T store because ALL of the people in there were about age 65. I could've sucked a bucket mollases out of a coffee straw faster than these fogies could figure out how to turn on a phone.
It's 11:36 and I have nothing to do. The only free thing I can do is rent movies because I have that movie pass thingie BUT all of the blockbuster workers know me by first name. ALL OF THEM. The shame!! SHAME!!! My ego is just gonna let me go to bed early tonight... Current Mood: bored
|Foreplay is to sex as...
Long lines are to amusements parks. *buh duh chhh*
Anyway... I finally got my lazy ass back on this thing at the behest of Miss Kembra. Thank ya, doll. I hope you're having fun in California.
so, yeah... i just got done watering my car. I gotta do it everyday because my dad is too much of a cheap ass to have the radiator fixed. If I don't water it an orchestra springs to life in the undercarriage and makes *best damn Bjork impersonation ever* "beauuutiful muuusic." I pray nightly in hopes that the damn thing will work the next morning! Thank god for RTS, right. pffft.
Anyway... I must go now and cheat on T-Mobile with AT&T. Take that, biotch Current Mood: tired
|Saturday, January 17th, 2004|
|Nothing quite like coming back to where you left off
I'm back after a very long hiatus. I just felt the sudden urge to write something... anything. I read a couple of my past entrys and didn't remember being so sad. I think I used this thing too much as an escape rather than a source of enlightenment. I figured if I wrote it all down then I could forget it ever happened... the page can keep the memory for me. Silly me
Last time I wrote on here I was addicted to cocaine and a manboy named Jason. I would swap addictions. I thought I'd never get addicted to another drug again in my life but then I started using again. I dropped out of the last semester. I'm $2,000 in debt but I have nothing to show for it... just really blackened lungs and a whole lot of extra miles added to the car. Right now I am taking twice as many classes to keep up with my major but at least i'm freakin drug free. I'm happy... not the manic happy that is common throughout my posts but the actual happy- that feeling of complete instead of contempt, of hope instead of hate. Whatever... I won't get sappy but I finally FINALLY started to turn my life around. I needed to hit rock bottom before I could go on anymore.
I'm so busy these days that I don't really have time for myself. It's all just a mixture of school, work, and dabbling my fingers in the adulthood franchise. Right... major changes in my life:
1) Stopped meeting people from the damn online. Personal promise... will never be broken. I have never met a person from offline that wasn't either a)neurotic, b)sexually deviant, c)physically abnormal (i once met a hunchback... I didn't know this prior to said meeting, naturally), d)socially retarded, or e)all of the above
2) Cut up the credit card. refer to paragraph 2
3) Study more, worry less. thats a good liberty
4) Sleep more, party less. The "you can always retake a class but you can never retake a party" philosphy has been tarred and feathered. nuff' said Current Mood: cheerful
|Wednesday, August 27th, 2003|
|why do you build me up, buttercup, baby just to let me down...
Heh, I have had that song stuck in my head for the longest time. I'm in a much better mood- I think I'm just too tired to care anymore. I got one hour of sleep last night- I didn't even go to my bed till 3 then Jason kept calling. He was very persistant in me coming over to his friends house with him...oh HELL no I will not have a threesome. Hay-ell no. What a dumbass, calling me at 4 in the morning. *insert enraged smiley here*
So I met someone today in one of my classes. I finally know someone outside of the little house. go me
I must go to sleep
|Thursday, July 31st, 2003|
|Wednesday, July 30th, 2003|
Righto... someone wrote a poem for me:
"Radiance of Soul"
Radiance of soul to eclipse all others.
all the daughters and all the mothers
blinding light glimmering all around
body and soul above the ground
totally evovolved to transcend
a beauty all over that knows no end
forever light even in the dark
two lost souls not so far apart
AWWWW... no one has EVER written anything for or about me...